Wednesday, 29 October 2014


You don't know how good it feels to finally be able to share my news with you all! It has been a crazy few weeks and I have never felt so alone, I have been so unwell and struggling to cope with daily tasks, let alone continuing my blog so I apologise for the non existent posts over the past few months. I honestly don't know how I have survived the past few weeks, Ive been throwing up every week, passing out, having trouble with my vision and also a few scare bleeds! Its been such a roller coaster but I'm so glad I can see a light at the end of the tunnel and also now that you all know I can have support and help from you all! 

So where to start.... I am currently in my 13th week of pregnancy but I will be writing up my weekly posts so you can catch up with what has been going on. So I apologise in advance for the pregnancy and baby spamming posts, but once I catch up it will calm down I promise! We actually conceived this baby 2 weeks after my miscarriage so we are feeling very blessed and happy that our little rainbow baby is on its way. I am due 1st May 2015 and I can't believe how quick this pregnancy is going, its really scary and I wish it would slow down, I still can't believe I am pregnant it just doesn't feel real yet. 

Finding out I was pregnant..

After my miscarriage I was given the go ahead from my doctor to get pregnant as soon as I felt emotionally ready, he said my body wouldn't get pregnant unless it was ready too. My miscarriage was really early too and my lines on my tests were never strong anyway, which meant the pregnancy hormone had hardly gone up. 2 days after I started bleeding from my miscarriage my pregnancy tests had already gone back to negative, and at this point Perry and I had already decided we wanted to try again as soon as possible. I knew that after a miscarriage you are actually more fertile then normal so I started using OPKs as soon as I stopped bleeding, about day 19 I had a positive OPK, we hadn't had sex much before then so I was feeling a bit negative already that we hadn't done enough, I guess you can't force it and should only have sex if you BOTH really want to. About a week and half later (the day before we went to Peppa Pig World) my Nan had come up from Kent to dog watch for my parents as they came with us. The first thing my Nan said to me was "you're pregnant Tara" I looked at her and shrugged, I said no I'm not the tests are negative. The next morning before we left for Peppa Pig World I took a test as I wanted to make sure I wasn't pregnant before I went on any big rides at the theme park, I anxiously waited the 3 minutes and looked at the test, there was a SUPER faint line... This was Friday morning and my period was due on Monday so I thought it could be something. I didn't get too excited, I was more looking forward to seeing Isla's face once we got to Peppa Pig World. 

Saturday we woke up in a hotel in Southampton, I thought it was odd as I woke up in the night for a wee and normally I sleep straight through the night no problem. We went back to Paultons Park and knowing I could possibly be pregnant I decided to give the big rides a miss as I wasn't in the mood anyway. We did go on the drop ride though as I wanted to get Perry on it for a laugh and I thought if I'm not pregnant and I didn't go in it, I would wish I had. We got home about 8pm and the first thing I did was go pee in a cup so I could take a pregnancy test, when I checked on it there was a line, still faint but you didn't need to squint or tilt the test... There was a LINE! I took another one and sure enough there it was.. 

Tuesday morning the line was pink in colour and so obviously there, so I booked to go to the doctors where they confirmed that I was pregnant and put me in touch with the midwives, it was all of a sudden becoming a lot more real, I still can't believe it now. I will be doing weekly posts now until I catch up, I have been super unwell so unfortunately I haven't taken any lovely maternity bump photos like I wanted to. But from now on I will be and I will be posting every week to document this pregnancy, it has already been so different to Isla's pregnancy, I have no feeling if it is a boy or a girl, with Isla by this point I knew she was a girl so I am super excited to find out this time. I will be booking a early private gender scan, we found out at 16 weeks with Isla so I'm looking to around the same sort of time with this pregnancy. Last Thursday was our 12 week scan, I ended up measuring a few days ahead when really I thought I would be measuring behind! So that was a nice surprise, its amazing what being a few extra days ahead can do. We also announced to most of our family, friends and to all of you last Thursday. If you don't follow me on Instagram you wouldn't of seen our announcement photo so I will put it below.

Our Halloween inspired pregnancy announcement. How spook-tacular! 

If you are due around the same time as me and are writing a blog about it please let me know as I would love to find a pregnancy buddy :)

Wednesday, 27 August 2014

Peppa Pig World (Day 1)

We were taken to Peppa Pig World at Paultons Park by my parents who kindly paid for us all to go and got us 2 for 1 day tickets and a nights stay in the Dury Inn hotel in Southampton. We left on Friday morning and unfortunate got stuck in a load of traffic so what was meant to be a 3 hour journey it took us over 5 hours! Luckily we had brought the iPad so Isla could get in the spirit by watching some Peppa Pig. We was all hot and bothered and just couldn't wait to get there, we arrived at the park at 3:20 so we had a little over 2 hours to enjoy the park.

 We went straight to Peppa Pig World, and while walking through the park I was amazed at how much there was and how big the park was. It was brilliant and full of kids smiling and enjoying the sunshine. Being a Friday it wasn't too busy, the first thing we done was change Islas nappy and then we went to Balloon Ride, we queued up for about 25 minutes, which wasn't to bad considering 2 of the balloons were out of order. Isla enjoyed the Balloon Ride and wasn't afraid at all of the height, I really enjoyed it I just wish it had lasted a bit longer for the time you have to wait. We then went over to the duck pond and found some food stalls, it cost over £3 for a hot dog which didn't even touch the sides. I'd definitely want to be more prepared next time and take a picnic.

The next ride we queued up for was Daddy Pigs car ride, this was about 25 minutes again. This was the best ride by far and the one I was most looking forward to. Isla loved steering the wheel, they also took your photo while you go round, although it would of been nice to have a warning as none of us was looking or smiling. Isla screamed when we had to get off, she obviously really enjoyed it.

Then we went in to Peppa Pigs House, there was no queues so that was good. Inside was a big Daddy Pig, Mummy Pig, Peppa Pig and George Pig, all of them moved there arms and mouth while telling a story. Isla was a bit nervous at first but then she was smiling and shouting Peppa Pig. When it finished we couldn't get her out so we ended up watching another episode.

At this point Isla was getting very tired and wanted to get in her pushchair. We was all feeling pretty tired too, we walked round to see what was about and found Peppa and George Pig had come out to see the children, we took Isla over but she couldn't get very close to them as it was so busy. Afterwards we wandered into the shop to get some gifts, Isla got a giant Peppa Pig teddy, and Peppa Pigs Campervan, I got myself some Mummy Pig pyjamas and a mug. When we come out we noticed a tractor ride with only a few people waiting in line, knowing the next day it would be busy Perry and my dad decided to take her on it which was nice.

5:30 came and the park was getting empty, the rides were still going and finishing the last of the people that were in the queues. We started to walk back out to the exit and noticed a Wind In The Willows building and quickly took Isla in before it shut. It was really good and we was all under a UV light so all our white clothing lit up, Isla enjoyed seeing all the moving character's and all the colours in there.

We then went to Mc Donalds to grab some dinner as we was all feeling tired and hungry, I could tell Isla was really tired and she was also teething so that wasn't nice for her. We then made our way to the hotel, when we checked in we was really impressed, the bedroom and bathroom was a really good size, we had a double bed and a single bed, but we had brought Isla her Peppa Pig ready bed so she slept in that on the floor. We bathed Isla and got her into her Peppa Pig pyjamas and warmed up some milk for her,  then I had a nice bath and got into my Mummy Pig pyjamas and was fast asleep by 11pm!

Monday, 25 August 2014

What We Took To Peppa Pig World

We have recently been to Peppa Pig World at Paultons Park in Southampton, we was lucky enough for my parents to take us and pay for it all. We had 2 for 1 day tickets and also stayed in the Jurys Inn Hotel which was only a 20 minute drive to the park. Here is everything I packed for Isla for the overnight stay, and of course Peppa Pig themed. 

1. Disney Sofia The First Suitcase & Islas Teddy Peppa Pig
2. A Plain white vest and a plain white long sleeved top to go under the tshirts if it was cold
3. Factor 50+ suncream
4. Hair tangle spray 
5. Tangle brush 
6. Calpol syringes as Isla is teething
7. 2 hairbands
8. Peppa Pig UV suit
9. Swimming nappy
10. Travelling outfit to Peppa Pig World
11. Day 2 Peppa Pig outfit
12. Calpol
13. 2 pairs of socks
14. Toothbrush and paste
15. Peppa Pig snack pot
16. A hooded zip up jumper
17. Peppa Pig pyjamas
18. Bubble Bath (I don't ever use Johnsons on Isla but found this in the cupboard, we threw it in the bin at the hotel after using it though)
19. Snacks!

This is the bed I got to take with us, Isla sleeps in a toddler bed now and hates sleeping in the travel cot at my mums so I decided to get her this bed from Argos. I will be doing a review on it soon so look out for that :) 

These are the 2 outfits I got Isla for Peppa Pig World, the outfit on the left is what she wore on Day 1 and is from Asda, it was super comfy for her to travel in and she wore it with her new pink high top Converse. The outfit on the left she wore on Day 2 and to travel home in, the tshirt is from Asda and I just put it with a pair of her jeggings so again it was super comfy to travel in for her.

This rucksack we put all of the snacks in for Isla and the swimming bits incase she used the splash park, we also put a towel in too and her reigns. 

Wednesday, 20 August 2014

Isla's Words At 20 Months

The other day I met up with a friend and her son who is 3 months younger than Isla, although her little boy was really clingy and grumpy due to teething we still managed to have a good afternoon and mummy chat. She mentioned that her son can only say less than 5 words and at a local group a speech therapist mentioned that they should be saying 30-40+ words. This also got me thinking, up until now I was getting a little worried about Islas speech and didn't think she knew that many words. She's always babbling and making up little songs and tunes while she plays with her toys. When I got home I decide to write down all of the words I could think of that Isla can say, lets just say I was very surprised and shocked at how many words she did know. I thought I would make a post and take note of all the words she can say, it will be good to look back on and also in the future I can compare with her brothers or sisters when they are around the same age. 

  1. Mummy
  2. Mum
  3. Dad
  4. Daddy
  5. Hello
  6. Bye 
  7. Nan
  8. Nanny
  9. Oh no
  10. Plane
  11. Duck
  12. Juice
  13. Thank You
  14. Ready, Steady, Go
  15. One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six (Also says in order)
  16. Why
  17. Baby
  18. Woof
  19. Shoes
  20. That
  21. No
  22. Ruby
  23. Poo
  24. Wee
  25. Ball
  26. Rabbit
  27. Peppa Pig
  28. Banana
  29. Chip
  30. Sit
  31. Oh Boy
  32. Tree
  33. Night
  34. Cheese
  35. Bubbles
  36. I Love You
Altogether that is 45, as some are on one line like the numbers etc. I was really shocked when I counted them all. Obviously these are just ones I can remember off the top of my head right now. I can't wait for her to start talking more and at the moment the most words she is putting together is 4-5 which is pretty good for her age. 

Monday, 18 August 2014

Our 4 Year Anniversary

Yesterday 17.08.2014 marked our 4 year anniversary, and I must admit this year felt a bit different, of course we was happy and proud of how far we have come in those 4 years, also how much we have been through together. But it just didn't have the same feeling back when it was our 1st anniversary, even more so now we have Isla. I know its important to not let children stop you from going on dates or to have nights off, but I think we have a bit, we have forgot to live as a couple, we are just Mum and Dad now. 

It has been a big eye opener for us, of course we are very much still in love, its just been a while since we have done anything properly nice together. I think the last time was my birthday in February actually, so we have made a deal that we will try to have one couple night once a month and go out for dinner, bowling or cinema. We do have date nights on Wednesday's but 99% of the time we do just stay in, we do take it in turns to organise it to keep it different and exciting. Typically it is a takeaway, movie night, or relaxing night where Perry will run me a candle lit bath etc. 

This year we kinda sucked with making plans for our Anniversary, we have had a lot going on the past few weeks and have booked to take Isla somewhere this Friday and Saturday (Keep your eyes peeled for a post) so we are looking forward to that and spending some quality time with Isla. It had left our budget very minimal for this year, our 1st and 2nd anniversaries we have stayed in a posh hotel and gone all out, but now we have Isla and rent we can't do that anymore.  Our 3rd Anniversary we went to Harry Potter Studios and had a meal out, so that was pretty good too. 

Saturday night we was meant to go out for dinner, but instead we went out on the jet ski and didn't get back until gone 7 so by the time we had washed it down it was 8 and then I was too tired to have a shower and get all ready, that sea air is a killer I'm telling you haha so that was the dinner out the window. Sunday morning we exchanged gifts, Perry got me an early upgrade so I now have a Samsung s5 and some Benefit make up I had been eyeing up, I got him a Go Pro but I pick that up from the shop on Tuesday so he can have it then :) He already knows I have got him it as I felt super guilty I couldn't give it to him on the day. We had a pretty chilled day, snuggled in bed and watched a film, while the rain was hitting the window.. it was surprisingly nice and enjoyable. We got a Chinese for dinner and I fell asleep on the sofa straight afterwards for 2 hours ooops so Perry had to cancel his plans as he wanted to run me a bath etc. That was a total fail on my part haha, I must of needed the sleep though, I guess Anniversaries with toddlers go like that, right? 

Although we didn't do anything exciting for it, it was still a lovely day. We did talk about some wedding plans though, and of course I will be doing posts about that when the time comes! Next year we will definitely be more prepared and do something nice for our 5th Anniversary, I am already looking at ideas. We might go out and do something in September as our Anniversary being in August made everywhere we wanted to stay extra expensive, also places are always busy so that put us off. We might just have a night away in the countryside, or go glamping or something like that before it gets to cold. 

Have you found the Anniversary novelty wears off a bit? 

Egypt was the last time we took a photo together.. we really must do this more too.

Wednesday, 13 August 2014

Doctors Appointment Outcome

Hi everyone, first off I want to say thank you so much to everyone that read my Early Miscarriage post and to those of you that left some lovely comments, they literally brought tears to my eyes. So as I mentioned in that post, I am here to talk about what happened at the doctors and what will happen with our next pregnancy. 

Here's a brief background on my pregnancy with Isla, at around the 22 week mark I experienced my first kidney pain after being diagnosed a week previous with yet another UTI and had just finished a course of antibiotics. The pain was unbearable, on the right side of my lower back, we went straight to A&E where I blacked out on the floor, it was so scary I remember my ears ringing, having sweat running down my body and then my vision went completely black, I remember crying saying my eyes are open but I can't see! We got seen instantly after my mum demanding someone see me, they performed a scan and Isla was completely fine, the Dr had a look in my kidney area and said it looked swollen and it sounded like the start of kidney stones. The pain went away and everything went back to normal, id just get the pain in the same area but no where near as bad as it was that night. 

Later on into the pregnancy over 30 weeks I started getting a pain down below, and it was so painful taking a wee, it wasn't like a UTI where it just burns, this pain is indescribable it felt like something was trapping my wee and I had to push and push tiny bits of wee out. I remember every night crying on the toilet, until I had got all the wee out. Being in the third trimester I was urinating so often so you can imagine how painful and annoying it was. A senior doctor told me that it was just Isla's head pushing down and that was the pain, but I knew deep down that it wasn't as I had experienced the same feeling in the past maybe 2-3 times. We now know that the pain I was describing was a kidney stone, because a month ago now I experienced the same feeling VERY early into the second pregnancy, so obviously it wasn't a baby's head pushing on my bladder, I also see the stone and instantly felt better afterwards. Ever since having Isla I have still had the pain in my lower right back but it felt like a numb type feeling, and I got so use to it I wouldn't even know I had it until I thought about it. 

When I went to the doctors 2 weeks ago and told him all of this and about getting the same pain down below just a few days after conception he advised that if I get any pregnancy symptoms and / or the pain down below or in my lower right back to go back and he will put me on a low dose antibiotic even before I get a positive pregnancy test. My kidneys and bladder must just not like me being pregnant so it seems like its going to be a problem again, I just wasn't expecting it to be from the start! I asked him if he thought the kidney problems had anything to do with the miscarriage, he obviously couldn't tell me for sure as we will never know what exactly caused me to miscarry, but he did say a infection left untreated can increase the risk of miscarriage. 

After taking a urine sample from me and checking it with a dippy stick (I always find that bit so awkward lol) he said something was showing up positive so he sent it off to the lab and also put me on a course of antibiotics for a kidney infection. I have finished them now and I have not once since had the pain in my back which is a good sign. Hopefully it helped fight off whatever was going on and the future pregnancy might not make it worse. I feel so relieved to know that once I am pregnant again he will put me on a low dose antibiotic just to be on the safe side, we don't know yet if I will need them for the whole pregnancy. I will cross that bridge once I get to it. For now we are just staying hopeful for our Rainbow baby :)